to be writing a blog entry that no one reads .. yea i'm that bored..
well, for various reasons..

i don't WoW anymore, ran out of friends ... i ran around yelling "No0b F4G" and no one responded ... well unless i go to barrens but all i get there are chuck norris jokes. I have to admit though some are pretty funny no matter how retarded it sounds. My personal fav: When u stab Chuck Norris, the knife bleeds.

my gf is out of town .. or should i say gone on a holiday cuz she was never in town in the first place. She's gone to Macau. Hope she have lots of fun =D. Yea peeps, i'm shocked myself that a girl is interested in me. I have long given up that i am even remotely 10% attractive. Yea, if i were to list 10 best thing that happened to me in 2009, i would list 1 all the way to 10 and write "Katie Poon Kar Yue" and maybe extend another 40 xD. Next week is our 1/2 year Anniversary. WOOT!~~! I love her guyz.

PC games? well, not a lot games grabbed my attention nowadays. The only ones are FF13, Bayonetta, Ninja Gaiden 3 and Dissidia. If u are a gamer, they all exist in Sony Playstation 3. I so want it !!! Especially the FF13 bundle edition. White with Lightning on the top. AWESOME. i hope i can save up enough money for it. I think i am safe to buy it now. If i bought it last year, i would have failed 3 papers. It was a good mature call. Now with only 2 papers left ... technically 1 paper, while the other is research, i can buy a PS3. I can register gym. and i should very much get a job!. **note to self.. get job** Meanwhile, i'm just gonna play Dissidia on PSP. It's awesome.. i'm so addicted to it... I have like 9 Lvl 100 characters and most are very specific build. I even learnt the lore of Dissidia which is awesome!! Dissidia is so addictive. Best part about it is i can stop ANYTIME!! a flick of a side button and i'm gone to do other stuff... xD

hmm if i post this on facebook.. i'm sure some will view this right? xD lol ...actually i still doubt it .. they will be like..
Alfred's blog ..... **skipps**

oh well

-Fr3akz out-

been so damn f***ing long time since i last do this ... and when i actually do this i am doing it cause i'm in a bad mood... i just don't know why ... am i a frigging girl? somehow i just get depressed i don't know why .. I don't know why i'm updating a bad mood day in my blog .. i don't usually do this .. and by this i mean letting others know i'm depressed. I don't like people to know i'm depressed for a few reason..

1) not their problem and it's not worth their time and effort
2) i hate it when people pity me when i dont have a valid reason to be depressed. It makes me look pathetic and even worst ... it makes me FEEL pathetic. I hate to be pathetic ... i have been pathetic for most of my childhood life and i dont want to go back to that path.
3) it is really just something which comes on some days. I always try hard to be happy and cool about everything. It bottles up u know..all that anger and frustration... it just takes me a day mostly to get over it...
4) even the tiniest of comment can make me angry. I HATE THAT! i want to get that attitude out of me.. It is something i probably gotten from my dad and my dad have spent 30 years of his life trying to get rid of that attitude and even he can't do it sometimes..

this sem have been hard on me. I have been bombarded with so many things. I suddenly have double the troubles this sem. This sem makes sem1 feels like a holiday. I do not have to consider so many things at the same time.. Last sem all i have to worry is how to get my work done and how to get a meal to my mouth. This sem .. all of a sudden.. work have been tough.. i'm not saying it isn't my fault.. in fact it probably is, food have been tough as well... i owe people money and i have difficulty getting food for my own. Thank god that problem end at the dawn of next month. i somehow have less free time due to the extreme work condition.

1) bad internet
2) assignment is tough like shit
3) i have no idea what 1 lecturer is talking about,
1 lecturer even said( online lecture ... my fault here)
1 lecturer is boring as hell
1 lecturer is sadist by making me work in notepad instead of MS word
4) i have extra commitments with having a gf and all but i dont mind cuz she is the best thing that happened this semester. She helps me lots but what frustrates me is our communication barrier. It sucks that i just can't understand her sometimes. It pisses me off even more when i am unable to understand when she is talking to her friends and i can't understand shit. I makes me feel like i am just another stranger just happened to be there. I want to really get rid of this barrier. Note to self... take chinese lessons .. preferably canto... i have 3 months off .. i might as well learn to write chinese while i am free .. i just can't have this barrier. It will not work between us if we have this barrier.

this is it .. this is what causes me to be down today isn't it... yea it is...




i must kick this barrier in it's shin and throw him out of my life forever. i will not have this.. ok i'm taking chinese lessons.

-Fr3akz out-