Ranting without Remorse and Guilt

Sunday, 27 September 2009

  • its just bad...

    been so damn f***ing long time since i last do this ... and when i actually do this i am doing it cause i'm in a bad mood... i just don't know why ... am i a frigging girl? somehow i just get depressed i don't know why .. I don't know why i'm updating a bad mood day in my blog .. i don't usually do this .. and by this i mean letting others know i'm depressed. I don't like people to know i'm depressed for a few reason..

    1) not their problem and it's not worth their time and effort
    2) i hate it when people pity me when i dont have a valid reason to be depressed. It makes me look pathetic and even worst ... it makes me FEEL pathetic. I hate to be pathetic ... i have been pathetic for most of my childhood life and i dont want to go back to that path.
    3) it is really just something which comes on some days. I always try hard to be happy and cool about everything. It bottles up u know..all that anger and frustration... it just takes me a day mostly to get over it...
    4) even the tiniest of comment can make me angry. I HATE THAT! i want to get that attitude out of me.. It is something i probably gotten from my dad and my dad have spent 30 years of his life trying to get rid of that attitude and even he can't do it sometimes..

    this sem have been hard on me. I have been bombarded with so many things. I suddenly have double the troubles this sem. This sem makes sem1 feels like a holiday. I do not have to consider so many things at the same time.. Last sem all i have to worry is how to get my work done and how to get a meal to my mouth. This sem .. all of a sudden.. work have been tough.. i'm not saying it isn't my fault.. in fact it probably is, food have been tough as well... i owe people money and i have difficulty getting food for my own. Thank god that problem end at the dawn of next month. i somehow have less free time due to the extreme work condition.

    1) bad internet
    2) assignment is tough like shit
    3) i have no idea what 1 lecturer is talking about,
    1 lecturer even said( online lecture ... my fault here)
    1 lecturer is boring as hell
    1 lecturer is sadist by making me work in notepad instead of MS word
    4) i have extra commitments with having a gf and all but i dont mind cuz she is the best thing that happened this semester. She helps me lots but what frustrates me is our communication barrier. It sucks that i just can't understand her sometimes. It pisses me off even more when i am unable to understand when she is talking to her friends and i can't understand shit. I makes me feel like i am just another stranger just happened to be there. I want to really get rid of this barrier. Note to self... take chinese lessons .. preferably canto... i have 3 months off .. i might as well learn to write chinese while i am free .. i just can't have this barrier. It will not work between us if we have this barrier.

    this is it .. this is what causes me to be down today isn't it... yea it is...




    i must kick this barrier in it's shin and throw him out of my life forever. i will not have this.. ok i'm taking chinese lessons.

    -Fr3akz out-

Wednesday, 04 March 2009

  • 20 post updates in 5 paragraphs

    no updates cuz no photos coming to me .. me my self do not have any photos to put up PLUS if there is ... there would be too much photos so i would post it in facebook instead .. so go find it but do not expect it x__x

    my first few weeks in Aussie has been fun and also really tiring. For one thing i dun have a car so i have to fucking walk to everywhere ... thank god i have a McD behind my house and a 7 11 not so far ahead ..

    i can gladly say my housemates are awesome ppl ^^ they are so fun and interesting.. =P Plus i save much more on food cuz i can easily leech food from them hahaha ..

    Class is difficult and it gives me more pressure since i CAN'T FAIL ADS!! if i do i will have to change my course planning all over. **prays to pass ADS** Doubt i can play much WoW here..

    I used up my internet cap in 2 weeks!!! OMG now my internet is slow!!!! Slower then TMNUT .. IMAGINE THAT!! i can only now download during midnight where it's off peak and my internet is restored since i have not used it yet...

    ----More when i'm free or when i get pics----

Saturday, 21 February 2009

  • Goodie Foodie

    i made dinner and i mix up some stuff which ppl originally does not lol...

    i mix pork, fish fillet slices and .. wait for it .... "Milk"
    full cream milk in fact lolz .. i just thought to my self, they use milk on stew right? that's basically what i'm making .. lots of stuff put in together to make something creamy ... i think .. lolz

    anyways i mix pork and fish .. and suddenly i just thought of mixing in Milk lol ..

    truth be told, it was a tad bit salty but i think that was cause of oyster sauce or salt and i add in a little soya sauce again .. for some reason. It was impulse i tell you.. i gotta stop adding soya sauce for everything .. xD

    but the point is, the salty problem is not caused by the milk(i think) which means putting milk in is all right ! hahaha .. i did not have a dish with milk in it b4 so i did not know how it should taste. But i heard of putting milk in it b4 so i guess it should be ok.

    All in all the dish taste great except for a tad bit salty. =D

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    gonna make lots more next time xD

Friday, 20 February 2009

  • Australia~~

    ok i know it's been a while .. but i have just arrived in australia for bout 5 days and i have been insanely busy. There is lots of things to do here. Settling in, buying groceries, trying not to get lost, learning the road, ended up getting lost anyways and etc etc.

    So from the very start, the plane was really difficult to sleep in cuz of the plane trembling all the way and also all the movies which was in the selection and i wanted to watch them =P. Around me was surrounded by people wearing coats and i thought they were students of MAS or something cuz they were the only special ones.

    So when i arrived at Australia full with body cramps and tiredness, i wearily drag my lazy ass off the plane and down to the check out area. B4 i reach there i browse through the liqour since they are really cheap but i decided not to add anymore weight.(My bags are bloody heavy for a guy, i literally packed my room with me)

    The next thing i know there was a line in front of me.. Then only to realize it wasn't a straight line but a line which zigged zagged and that only means LONGER wait .. With my heavy handcarry and my lack of energy and me being bored outta my mind waiting. I silently chanted, move move move move for god's sake MOVE! But then i painfully moved only a single step every 2 minutes.

    Once i reach the errm .. "station" where the guy takes and check my declaration card.[FINALLY] I was sent to line one. Which by the way ... EMPTY. Line 2 onwards was filled with ppl lining up. While dragging my trolley full of luggages down Line one, i had to endure the STARES of ppl all annoyed by y am i moving so fast. But little do they realize i was really worried cuz i was the ONLY one going down the line. I was so worried that i was carrying something illegal of somesort. Luckily all they did was scan and nothing was wrong with my luggages. ***PHEW***

    Ok so i waited for the bus and i made the FIRST 2 friends i have in Australia. Vicky and Janine. We talked u know the usual,"what u study, where u stay, how much, how long, what year, etc etc" Once i reach my house which was at Koonawarra St, i did the usual settling in etc etc. Ok finally the first picture. I doubt some of u ... in fact most of u read what i typed anyway...

    Ok cut to the chase the first thing i did there was take picture of my room and MYSELF of course!!

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    ok i think i should do less storytelling and more pictures now .. cuz i know almost no one bothered to read actually LOL.

    So...
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    I took this in clayton rd but only to realized my HOUSEMATE was in that bus and saw me taking the picture!!.. **MALU** ** MALU**

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    Untangling icebreaker stuff we did at the Summer Swoop. (i will post it once i get more pics.. or just go to my facebook)

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    The first clue we got at Summer Swoop. Oh yea.. FYI this is like Amazing Race where we are given a clue and are needed to go to the next part of clayton. It was lots of fun. More bout this later.

    Pictures i secretly took while moving through out clayton.
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    My lunch.. Self made sandwich(Butter fried bacon and egg)
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    This was actually one of my snack... LOL it tasted kinda dull but edible. Bread with olive oil and soya sauce. I should get herbs for the olive oil and vinegar to replace the soya sauce..
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    One of the Landmarks in Chadstone. I was getting a new uni bag. I forgot to bring mine. ><




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